This question has been one that has been every where I read, every conversation I hear and every whisper that HE whispers to me.
As we journeyed through week 6 and looked at how we are Beauty from Ashes I was also continuing in my reading of the book titled Brave Heart Unlocking the Courage to Love with Abandon.
I was awed in our study how Tamar was treated and began to feel shame at the hand of those who were closest to her. As this story unfolded and I began to see the weeping from shame that Tamar felt and how the MAN reached out to her I felt such a deep longing to know that man who was reaching out for her hand, a hand to offer her redemption from shame. I want to feel that redemption. I want to know that beauty. I want act like who I am....But do I know, TRULY know who I am?
As I continued reading Brave Hearts...I was encouraged to look deeply at who I am. Proverbs 2:2-6 says "So that you incline your ear to wisdom, and apply your heart to understanding; Yes if you cry out for discernment and lift up your voice for understanding, If you seek her as silver And search for her as for hidden treasures; Then you will understand the fear of the LORD And find the knowledge of GOD. For the LORD gives wisdom; From HIS mouth come knowledge and understanding..."
When my world was turned upside down a few years ago it was that pivotal moment that GOD began speaking loud and clear to me about my past my present and my future. I knew a few things one being I am fearfully and wonderfully made in HIS image, two being I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me and three....I knew HE loved me and I longed for more of HIM. It was a humbling and terrifying part of my journey I would begin to embark on but as I began to confess my story and trust HIM fully HE began to chastise (and it hurt) and mold me in HIS image. The more I trusted and obeyed HIM the more my heart began to be set Free. HE began to fill my longings and my dreams and HE began to bless me.
I journeyed home not to long ago and as you all know home is not the most comfortable place for me. It was certainly going to be a trip of uncertainty and I knew I would be treading in unpredictable waters. I also knew that I had taken of the old me and put on the knew. I was know clothed in his robe of righteousness and I was redeemed. HE was whispering softly to me "Michelle...I love you. ME the king of kings, your heavenly bride groom, I love you. Your mine. I will restore these relationships. Trust me. I can heal the wounds. And so I went home covered in prayer. It proved faithful as HE always does. I conquered one more piece to the puzzle of "Who am I?" I am my beloveds and my beloved is mine Song of Solomon 6:3 "Our Bridegroom sometimes leads us to difficult places, but we can trust Him always to have purpose in our stand and never to forsake us." Beth Moore-Breaking Free.
My journey of "Who am I" continues several weeks after my return home as I continue in Breaking Free and continue to attend Church....
As I attended the Beth Moore simulcast So long Insecurity I began again to see that Who I Am is important. Do I believe I am
Saved from myself- Does my mind focus on God or idols
Entitled to Truth- Do I rest in HIM or strive for perfection
Clothed with intention- Do my actions collide with emotion? How do I act?
Upended by Grace- His Grace sets us free!Grace turns everything upside down poor/rich
Rebounded by Love- 1 Cor. 13..Everything comes back to love the greatest of all things
Exceptional in Life- Have I put off my old self and put on the new?
On Sunday Sandy spoke about Faith and Repentance.........
2 Cor 7:9 Now I rejoice, not that you were made sorry , but that your sorrow let to repentance. For you were made sorry in a godly manner that you might suffer loss from us in nothing.
Isaiah 55:6-7 Seek the LORD while HE may be found, Call upon HIM while He may be found Call upon HIM while He is near. Let the wicked forsake his way and the unrighteous man his thoughts; Let him return to the LORD and he will have mercy on him. And to our God for He will abundantly pardon.
Week 7 in Breaking Free...
I am being challenged again to know Who I Am....
Do I act like a child of God?
Do I prefer TRUTH
Do I overcome oppressions
Do I overcome deceit
Do I seek real answers
Am I obedient to HIS call and HIS word? Obedience does not mean sinlessness but confession and repentance (oh....the big R word again:) Obedience is not arriving at a perpetual state of godliness but perpetually following hard after God. Beth Moore- Breaking Free.
For freedoms sake repent and obey so freedom can reign in us to do HIS good work and Glorify HIS name.
So as I read, chat and listen I must as Am I in the Spirit...Because where the Spirit of the LORD is there is FREEDOM and I want to be set free....
Who Am I...I am HIS. Designed to do HIS good work.
Prayerfully seek HIM. Get in HIS Word!
You will find freedom and it is an amazing feeling (not always easy but alays amazing)!
In HIM Authentically